When this blog began I had signed up for my first one month hot yoga challenge. The experience of yoga on a regular basis in addition to the experience of the hot room proved to be a physical challenge and provided some inspiration for this blog as well. In the end it also fostered some unnecessary injuries and issues with heat stroke — so I do continue to do yoga but in a slightly different setting.
MY 2013 CHALLENGE IS…..drumroll please….
Running 2 (yes 2) 10k races (September and October).
Some have asked, “What/who are you running from?”
That answer is more complex than I initially thought.
I am running from heart disease and diabetes (both were my mom’s arch nemeses).
I am committing to run to change my commitment karma, if you will. Out with the one-sided relationships with people who cannot commit to the basic concepts of a relationship: Communication, Friendship and Honesty. Bring on the healthy commitment karma!
I am running to get through the grief. Running in the hope of somehow recreating my mother’s strength and perseverance, and honouring her spirit.
And I am running to flush out the disappointment and frustrations of past relationships for good, and forever. Maybe I can somehow cultivate compassion through running.
Finally, and equally as important as the rest, I am running because the post-run high is pretty freakin’ fabulous.
Mom lived with Diabetes for 20+ years and persevered through those last 2 years of life with a multitude of issues and challenges (as a result of long-term diabetes), so therefore there is no reason why I couldn’t move my butt 3-4 times a week. And by all means I can get out there on race day and give it my best. And for what its worth – mom had diabetes, heart disease and cancer (x2) and my dad has had cancer (x1)- the odds are stacked against me and I need to keep movin’!
There are no illusions of grandeur, as there is virtually no chance of my placing in the top ten of any age group – I just want to get out there and do my best. With any luck I will not be the last person to straggle across the finish line.
Have I ever run anything in my life? Not since about grade 5. Though I was a decent runner at that time — it was more than a few decades ago.
I want to prove to myself that I can do anything I put my mind to. To show everyone (and myself) who is afraid of being 45, divorced, with no children, that it is going to be ok. In fact, its pretty damn liberating at the best of times! That at 45 yrs of age one doesn’t need to give in to what society deems as OLD, and that to feel young one doesn’t need to pretend they are in their 20’s either. Doing new things challenges us to do and think differently, we interact with different groups of people, and in this case, we do a bit of good as well.
I’ve made this commitment ‘public’.