Oh, hello blog…its been awhile, eh? Found this post from September and thought it was due to be posted. Better late than never!
The first 10K was scheduled for Monday, September 2nd. Training was going well – finally reached a 9K run about two weeks previous to the race. Picked up my race kit on thursday. On friday, off to the ER we go! Yep. Darn allergies. Suffice it to say that an asthmatic reaction of sort has waylaid my training for a brief period of time.
Perhaps I spent a bit too much time inhaling those fumes from the bonfire. *sigh*
As so many have said to me, and so many have said to the running population – it’s not about how fast you run. It’s about putting one foot in front of the other and participating. So that is exactly what I did – participated.
Maybe I needed to be slowed down a bit – to stop and enjoy the beautiful sunshine on that cool morning.
In the last GSBH post, the focus was compassion for those that have betrayed or hurt us. Today it’s about turning the focus towards ourselves, yes, inward – completely, selfishly, and wholly. Compassion for self.
As I move through the healing process I am reminded that my body, in its entirety, cannot be rushed through the healing process. Over time my lungs will relax, bronchial tissues will resume their homeostatic state, and being physically active will become easier. At this point in the process I am eager to get moving again! This morning I went for an easy run/walk and my lungs have been rebelling ever since — thankfully not in a tightened, wheezy kind of way but in a hacking cough, congested kind of way. It’s a bit of a trade-off I guess.
Again, its one step at a time. Today a short, easy run/walk. Tomorrow maybe a quick walk. Eventually back to my usual morning run. *sigh* Be patient with yourself, I say to myself. Have compassion for yourself and allow your body to do what it needs to do, assist when/where needed. And by have compassion I mean – don’t beat yourself up for not being active right now, don’t lose patience with the process of healing, and find other ways to keep active in the mean time.
On the positive side of all of this there is the realization that my body image and overall outlook was much more positive when I was in a training mode of sorts. Damn those body image issues!! Again, am learning to be compassionate with myself. When it comes to body image I am my own worst enemy – today I will remind myself that I am not feeling 100% and that is ok, I will remind myself that although I feel large and lazy I am actually down a few pounds from where I was in June. And if I need to flex my quads and poke them with my finger to remind myself how much stronger my legs are since beginning running, then I’ll do it…poke..poke.
One step at a time.
So, yes, I will be a little selfish and take care of myself as I move through this healing process.
Compassion for self is good.